#NewThisDay Writing From My Photo Stream
Three memories in the last twenty four hours, inspired by yesterday's blog.
I begged my mother to buy me a six-string guitar when I was in the third grade, for Christmas, and she did. She even arranged for me to have lessons at the YMCA. I went to class, the teacher was young, college aged, male, and I was naively confident I would learn how to play. After two, maybe three, classes I stopped. Learning chords seemed too challenging. Teasing and distracting the teacher was too easy. Music wasn't a language that made intuitive sense to me. Maybe I simply did not have the discipline, the energy, the passion, to practice the chords, which might have led me to some success.
I wanted to be a ballerina, but not because I had any talent for dance. I saw a movie about a ballerina who broke her foot and kept dancing, because she was an artist, and her sacrifice was noble. It occurs to me now this ballet class may have been in the same year as my attempt at guitar. My mother dutifully signed me up for ballet class in the church basement at the center of town. She had plenty of reservations about how suitable this class would be for me. Buying the black leotard was a pleasure. Putting it on, after school, in the basement with my best friend, was a little scary. Standing at the barre, being commanded to sculpt my body in little French phrases - this too, was not anything I had any natural talent for, and my friend, she was all expressiveness and grace. After the first class, I was struck by fit of anxiety - I knew I would not, could not, return to class and embarrass myself any further. My mother grumbled at the waste, and let me drop.
When I was in eighth grade, what a trouble maker I was. The teacher I plagued the most with my mischief, my English teacher, Mrs. Orlofsky, read my essay aloud to the class without asking my permission. She read it as an example of good writing. Mrs. Orlofsky blew my cover, my friends were shocked, and I was furious. Secretly, I accepted her praise, my natural talent. On my writing, I have never given up.
A moon, growing in my backyard,
found me settled here, at home
it beamed its cratered brightness in my way
disrupting my complacence, claiming its fistful -
such riches, from my blackest hearty soil
holding every rightful inch of its earthly space
All photos and words copyright Kelly DuMar 2016